I thought i was going to be super fried by my teacher because holiday was one day away and i still haven't done my homework which requires me to accomplish in two weeks. Then the news came, another week of holiday extended. Good news for my assignment but not good news for me because i'm given work at home to help my bro with his maths and knowing me and maths, we don't go so well in history. It's prssurizing me even more since i have to finish my assignments and do some house work like doing the laundry (hand wash) and cleaning the bedroom. I guess that's what parents become when they see their daughter who's turning 19 sitting around at home or going out too much everyday. (breaths in deeply)

I just wish that this person which is me, is capable of multitasking and you know smart enough to teach her bro with maths. That she can take house duties and carry them out fast with a very merry heart. That she can take her mom's cold poignant comments in a postive way and do what she wants her to do. That she could find a job soon after the exam and get a better house for her family and get her own room to sleep in.

The stress that I'm facing right now is something most people would or would not understand because of my limited vocabulary. I don't know whether i could find someone who understands me the way i want them to but yeah, it's hard and i also wonder whether i will find that "someone" here in Brunei. Judging from what i see now, there's a small chance that that would happen. I need someone who can speak out the words that i want to say and not think about whether it makes sense or not. I need someone who can take my emotional times and understand me without me explaining word for word.

I need someone who can make me smile when i look worried or when i'm on the verge of breaking down. I need someone who can lend me his shoulder when i feel really low.

I want a guy friend that can make me understand the world of guys. I know i'm not ready to go into any relationship, i just want a companion. There won't be any space for mushynesss or any lovey dovey, just pure friendsip.

All these are just fantasy, none will come true.

Can you imagine it??? Right after camp we had another exciting event going on and it was held at Kus place which was so fun.

First i got to tell you about the tiny adventure we had before we started watching the movies we planned to watch. Blessy felt bad that she caused the dogs to escape from their dwellings then somehow we all followed the dogs and ended up as dirty as them. We crossed two tiny rivers and yeah all of us came back stinky and wet on our feet, well not for Kus his whole leg went into this swamp and lost his slippers for a moment. Thanks to Blessy, he managed to get it out before the slimmy thing swallowed it. The most memorable thing was Ryan screaming like a lil girl when something touched his arm and yeah it made me run for cemented ground hehehehe......


The movies that we watched were awesome!!!!!! Thanks to Ches and Kus for making this event come true and not just some plan said by the Mouth. We swam to our hearts content and had some good food after that.

Liar liar was my favourite movie in that party so far....heheheh coz of Jim Carey, he was so funny and seriously hilarious.........

Other than the movies, swimming and good food, we played ROCK BAND!!!!!! I really liked the drums!!!!! Playing accordind to the beat really made me pumped up except I didn't know most of the songs so yeah.......

WE went home at 11pm. But I still wished we could watch the movies that is kinda like a must have.......maybe another time........

Of all things that I should have said, I cannot not say Praise GOd for all these, you know the fact that everything went really well and all of us had lots of fun was all due to God's favor. It's something I believe that if things don't go right , you should first go to the Maker of all things and seek Him first and then only will things go smoothly........

Praise Him
Hugs and Kisses to all my beloved friends

The first week of camp was just awesome...i get to sleep over a number of times at the Tan's and the Joseph sistas on the first Wednesday, camp started (YAY!!!!!) the first day was remarkable. Pastor Lawrence really did a good job. Dinner was great too, compliments to the ones in charge!!!! hehehehe...... supper too was extravagant, we had sushi and other delicious dishes all thanks to Mich and Stephen.

The second day was equally unique as we had to play handicap and something undesirable happened which I'm not going to mention as it involves someone that i know really close. Anyways, i got to know my team really well in the tough game and yeah it was awesome, it really built trust and team work in us all. I really want to give my gratitude to the ones in charge of games man. Worship and praise and the message really taught me alot of valuable things that i have and have not learnt. That is, learning to worship God no matter how you feel. While the message helped me get a grip of myself, you know holding on what you were told by God when you started believing in Him.

Third and fourth day of camp were just tiring but never less awesome than the other two,I can say that our fasting and prayer did not go to waste =). The vibe for camp was extremely unexplainable, i really thank God it was amazing.

The games this year was incredibly challenging and interesting. i really want to thank Anna, Becky and Ches for such good choice of games.

We really had fun on the last day of camp, the part where we had to prepare for a commercial presentation and we had to include the lines from a song that we are familiar with and combine it with an electrical appliance. It happened to be that our team's electrical appliance was the one and only washing machine and the song was Since I Found Your Love.....XD it was hilarious on that day!!!!!! We all contributed to the flawless masterpiece and yeah it was amazing how we all had lots of fun in the midst of such little time and last minute preparations.

All in all, camp started with a BOOM! and ended with a BANG! Each life was touched and transformed by God, not one left untouched although some were too young to understand things like this.

I really Praise God for His plans that my mind can never comprehend His power.

Praise HIm.
Love and Hugs to all my beloved friends

Yes school is finally out and I feel like a bird that's has been in cage for so long - set free........but that doesn't mean that I'm free from revising T_T oh wells i guess that is what life is all about, the minute you set foot on beautiful earth that's the


the start of the never ending trials we face.............................








I malas to type coz last night i didn't sleep at all throughout the night.......................YAWN......