So here's the thing, it's been a while since I blogged.

The fact is that I like to blog here more than on Tumblr because , it's more private here and no one rarely comes and visit it so yeah.

So the fact that I've started working is different and has made life look way different from that of a student's point. At work, you are bound to work with people who are way older than you. Having different wave lengths and WAY different kind of humour. Gosh, makes me miss being with people at my age...

It can get a little depresssing especially when the people you work with speaks in another language half the time. And it's so irritating when they do that. How I wish they were in my position and know my feelings.

Haha. owh well, God will teach them somehow.

Hmmm the other thing that I want to blog about today is well as usual. What a girl wants in her man.

To me, my imaginary guy would be one who loves children. Simple and yet adorable. Not stubborn. Not egoistical, romantic which means that he knows how to be romantic and also knows exactly how I feel when I go through hard times. He knows how to be sensitive and when I cry, he wouldn't just stand cold but his heart would melt and feel the same sadness just by seeing my sadness and sobs and he would let down his man ego to come close and offer his shoulders and hug me by the side, telling me that it's gonna be okay. Even if he doesn't say it, i'll know just by his actions which is caring,gentle and warm.

My ideal relationship is one which would be fun and not awkward when I go out with friends with him. Not too mushy but more of friend kind of behaviour, but at times when there is a need, we would be sweet to each other. not mushy till friends have to close one eye. We would have the same wavelength and humour, and seriousness towards our beliefs. We would watch out for one another and keep each other in check in our walk with Christ. We would help each other grow and never fail to encourage each other so that the more closer we get to each other, the more intimate we get with God Author of our love.

We would know the boundaries and will not force each other to attempt to compromise our purity. We would love to go everywhere with each other and even if we do have fights, we would take the courage to talk through and forgive one another.We would love watching cartoons with each other, especially Disney cartoons! and we would want to let our children watch all of the past Disney collections which we used to watch during our childhood. He would be older than me, yet he behaves like a child somethimes. Not immature but child like. He wouldn't mind to be playful at times and he enjoys teasing me and loves me just the way I am. He would be beautiful inside and out. He knows what to do when trials and tribulation comes, but sometimes, he needs me to help him decide and he is not afraid to ask advice from someone who is a girl and younger. He'd love to go out for sports, especially on Sundays, trekking is one of his favourite sports and way to keep fit. He would deeply rooted in the word of God and he has the integrity to stand firm and not move especially when it comes to standing in his faith.

He would be much more rooted in Christ than I am, that at times I would look to him to help me seek God, whenever, I fail to see God again. The same thing sometimes when he loses his way.

We would complement each other, we would glorify God together and in all that we do.

We would respect each other's decision and most of the time, the decisions we make would not make the other person worried. We would seek God's ways and repent and obey fully. We would bring each other up in our faith and he would be a great worship leader. Always touching lives whenever he leads worship. He would be one who is humble and loves animals too. He is smart and patient to teach those who are slow in achieving or absorbing. He knows how to work with almost everyone yet, not compromising the laws God has set before men.

Those are just some ideas of the type of guy I would want to be with and yes, I've found some characteristics in one particular guy but God says, He is not the one. So yeah, I know that it's almost impossible to find such a man, but if God does find one like such, I'd be terribly blessed and ever awed at His works. It would almost be a Forever miracle.


Sadly, nowadays the men, that I see around me are nothing near to what I wish to be. They most of the time portray the same profound attitude which I call man ego. Stubborn, refuse to listen to any advice given by someone who is not on the same par with them. Stone cold. Unmercilful at times. Insensitive. Filled with pride and obnoxious, especially around women sometimes.

Therefore, I guess the thought of settling down and finding a man of my dreams, is only - really in my dreams. =)

I will just enjoy the life of singlehood.