Lovey Dovey!

This week has been a real lovey dovey week,yeap in school.My friends are all doubles now except for me and Wan chan! ^^ oh well,I do wish sometimes that I wasn't single but come to think of it,if I were to have someone as my boyfriend,I wouldn't it to just be puppy love i want it to be a serious one,and I want that relationship to go ahead to the altar,til death do us part.yea im not ready for a relationship,just want to focus on my studies and career plus put God first.After all Jesus is our bride =)

A testimony...

Just got a mobile,but that doesn't matter,what matter is my testimonial to glorify God. I was afraid that this phone would not be mine. I prayed and asked though deep inside I doubted. I wondered wether HE heard me or not or will He give consent.

Started collecting money for it though I still doubted that it would come true.

25th October 2008
after YDM,KOOL meeting and dinner. Got into the car with my brother.
Dad:Sheiela how much is the phone you wanted?
Me:umm it's $118, why?
Dad:oh then how much do you have now?
Me:only 40
Dad:ok you give me the 40
Mum:TADaa! (with mobile bag in hand)
Me:WHAT! YOU BOUGHT IT! WAH I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! THANK YOU D AND MA!

See how wonderful our God is,how unthinkable plans He can set in Your life.My GOD IS BIG!

Praise HIM!!!!1

What have i done to deserve these blessings????
What have i contributed to accept Your love???
What did I do that made You love me as me??

Indeed Lord You are Amazing!
I can't praise You enough.....

LOrd thank You......

LOOKKKK HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Make sure you scroll till you see someone familiar XD

I MISSS YOU


Yeash I miss you alot.....and yesterday i wished i got to chat with you.....You know who you are.....

Yesh last night my bro was playing the Hercules cartoon and I loved one of the songs which is so wow to me lah....

the lyric goes....

No man is worth the aggravasion
lalalala i don't know the others

and then

You swoon, you sigh, why deny it oh oh....(the backup singers)
It's too cliche, I won't say I'm in love.....(the girl)
and then there is this part in the song where it says....

You're doing flips read our lips (the back up singers)

YOu're in love!!!

Hahahah yeah it's nice will put it in the song list soon....and um.....

I'm pretty confused these days.....have been having personal problems..the blahs are coming again and my feelings and emotions are getting tender and sensitive.....I miss the times when I can smile despite the bad things that happened.....

I really miss you so much...wish you were here all of you......=)

I hate it when I'm emo.......

Growing up in a Malay neighborhood and having friends who are Malays carved a Malay in me....on the inside...I know what inside joke they are talking about and what are the latest singer or actor in Malaysia, Indonesia and um...Brunei off course. XD Yeh that is how I am......I can laugh at their jokes from malay movies and um....lots more....but ever since I started going to YDM....and Church...I always feel inadequte because most of them would ask me this " do you know this guy???" or "do you know that girl???" either a famous writer or a singer from Hillsong or Planetshaker and so forth would come into the conversation...which will me in a BIG guess who that person is...and it makes the person I'm talking to feel like I'm useless to talk to....coz I usually say nope...and yeah I feel left out sometimes........


It got me thinking about why can't I fit in with the others....why do i feel like I can't communicate with them.....and it was until now that I found out that they don't speak my language.....what i mean is, it's not the language language thingy....it's the way I speak language....see because I didn't grow up in their environment like in St.Andrews school...they were brought up in a different "language" than me......


So yeah....I now am trying to learn fro them their "language" and their most fav topic like singers and writers and lots more......so help me in this journey to get to know YOUR language ......=)

Which reminds me that our relationship in Christ has a language too...for example....as a Christian we usually speak kindness, love, compassion in our daily lives....what I mean is not just in our conversation but in our lives, our character, our family and everywhere. Why? Because our God has a language which 'we' only know....so don't take it for granted yeah people!!!! We have a wonderful God and we should use this language to tell people of His LOVE and all the other precious values our God has installed for them and what our LORD has done for them.....


XD

Yeah you know God is really great! Let me tell you why....see I always wonder whether I will ever change from my typical ways..those who know me already know what I'm talking about =) And yeah He did change me......I felt like I was going up step by step, what I mean was that once I have overcome that obstacle in my life then He will bring me to level 2! Yeah and sometimes maybe up to level 3! hmmmm but I only realized the level level thingy when I read out KOOL retreat craft that used a bible verse from the book of 2 Peter 1:5-9 which says 5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins. I tried to apply it to my life and VOALA!!!! I'm in level 5!!!!!! I think hahahaha yeah so you guys out there...should try it too.......don't give up if you are not in any level.....stand up and try again!!!!!!

Like the Japanese people use to say GAMBATE!!!!!!! (pronounced as gum ba teh!) hahahah yeah which means try hard or like keep working hard!!!!

Yeah and umm....I thank GOd for HIs everlasting never ending LOVE!!!!!!!

On Saturday after school.....my dad dropped by Kiulap before sending us to YDM, then for some reason when he came out of the store....instead of heading for our car he side tracked to a lonkang near the junction of the main Kiulap road. We were all waiting and I was starting to get angry because I was boiling hot in the car and plus my brother and I were really late for YDM or I thought I was. When my mom finally decided to find out what was wrong with my dad, he finally came back to the car.

As we head to Church he explained that there was an angmo a Lady who was trying to save a lil kitten in the drain....as we passed by, I saw her on the phone probably trying to call for the authorities like the fire brigade or something......and then I managed to get a glance of the husband who was walking towards her from the Petlink shop. He was holding a pretty large fish net in his hands...probably to catch the kitten in the safest way...plus it was wet wah and it kept on running away to the other side.

After YDM my dad said he went back to see and he explained to me that the person the lady was calling was actually the owner of the animal shelter, she was there and she managed to help save the poor kitty.....the best thing of all my dad said when she caught the kitten, she wrapped it in a towel and held it like it was her baby....Awwwwwwww I really am inspired with the kind hearted work she has done........^^

My mom managed to get more info from her and she would like anyone to cooperate to give any info about any stray cats or dogs.....she even gave my mom an email address....here


I hope you guys would help in giving her more info if there are any cats or dogs that are kept in a cage or chained in a very inhumane way.....oh and I checked out that she has so many dogs for adoption........ XD

Yeah the third day wasn't much...I woke up at around 7.30ish I think and since Rach was awake and I felt freezing cold...we decided to go down without the other dirls knowing.....and yeah so funny first we went down to the lobby to get out of the Hotel but it seemed worthless because we didn't have a proper place to sit and then thanks to Rach's brain.....we went to the swimming pool instead....Ahhhh it was warm and nice so calm......could have swam but nah too lazy plus I don't wanna get darker no more.....hahahah...yeah then we checked out at 10 am and headed back to our beloved country BRUNEI!!!!!!!! Hahahahahhahh........yeah it was fun...this time on the way home...I fell asleep...I felt sorry for Tim because he had to drive and not sleep the WHOLE WAY! Thanks Tim for driving us home safely!!!!

In Brunei, once we reached Church...it was time to prepare for YDM and yeah that was all....some had practice at Church for Sunday while some had visiting to do....like me!!!! hahahaha.....yeah

So guys that's all for the trip......

Really glad I had the chance to go and wished there will be a next time......

^_^

Yeah the first day,I woke up at around 8am. But the funny thing was that I kept waking up and then sleeping back again and each time I did that, I would see Rach all dressed up beside me because we shared the same bed.

Our breakfast was at a Chinese restaurant called 2020.....I wonder why they call it 2020......maybe because they have like 20 waiters and waitresses???? Anyways I had some Dim Sum....because I didn't really feel like eating alot......Thanks to Che che Lorene, I tried some nice dumplings.....=)


I could'nt really remember what we did after having our breakfast....owh now I do....we head back to the hotel and then decided to go for a swim.....Yeah that's right!!!! Haahaha....yeah we swimmed and swimmed untill it was like around 3.30??????? Had to get out because it was time to practice some dancing before the night's occasion.....didn't want to get out of the pool because I really love swimming......but yeah thanks to Rach I didn't regret it because right after getting out, I saw how dark I was in the toilet......yeah if you ask Rach,Laurice and Caroline....I was seriously screaming!!!!. But then I think after the cold water off my face it wasn't that bad....the reason it was so dark was because of the sauna too I think??? Because it was extra hot in there......rather than the night before.....

Yeah that night we departed to Lutong....the performance was cool and we had fun.....ended the day with a big supper thanks to Juds fellow Church members they belanja us.....I miss JAnet!!!!!!!!!! Hey ya'lll nice dancing!!!!! hahahahah....randomness..yeah we saw Janet and Juds dancing that night it was nice!!!!!

Yeah that was all I guess...that night we slept at 2am kinda with some UNO you know that's why we slept so late......

Ok....First day...hmmm well we had to be at Church by 8 am and yeah got there in time then we waited like for 15 minutes for everybody to come and get ready. Then at around 8.30 am we departed. I was assigned to be in Tim's car with Rach and Ches. The journey there wasn't too boring or too dull....we talked about random things (mostly Tim was and Ches was talking with each ohter and I barged in the their convo ^_^) Hehehe.....and Rach was like most of the time quiet because she was sick and yeah I think because she was also sleepy and tired. But half way to Miri we took some pics in the car through Rach camera, she showed me some special effects that her camera had. Somewhere between Tutong and KB we stopped by to get something to eat. Lorene said the Kuehtiaw (is the spelling right????) was good and yeah so I share with Rach since I didn't feel like eating. So funny, I thought we stopped there to get our passports chopped because the place reminded me of the immigration in Temburong where it can't be seen that well and when we were going to the chinese shop I was like wondering why is no one holding their passports??????

After lunch, we continued the journey to Miri. At that time it was like around 12ish. and yeah it was more silent and boring. I was just looking out the car window,you know just looking whether I could see anything out of the unusual....I only saw a monkey and umm near the Brunei border ....I saw a fish plopped out of the drain (not really a drain but much more like a little river by the side of the road) earlier before that I saw some men with their nets standing near that area so I though that whatever I saw plopping out was a fish.

After going through the immigration without any delay, we then headed to Imperial Hotel. I was so bangang, I thought that we were going to the guys house who was supposed to pick us up that day. Anyways the hotel was nice and what's even nicer is they have a swimming pool!!!!!! Oh a sauna and a gym as well!!!!! But yeah eventhough all these nice things would make me usually scream I still didn't feel that happy because I wished that the others were there too.......But I still really am thankful that I could go!!!!!

Anyways......after checking in Rachel and I went shopping and after that we walked to starbucks....Luarice and I were like finding for a swimming suite....and we did!!!1 Thanks to all the Cheches (that includes Val,Lorene and Luarice) hahaha because they are like big sisters to me.....hope they don't mind............

At night we went swimming and then after that wash up and went down to KFC to buy something for dinner. I ate at the apartment while watching thunder cats....soon I joined the others with some card games........

That was all for the first day...

Will continue tommorow yeah........

Wow just three weeks and it feels like only three days of holidays.....well the first week of holiday was just normal relaxing and then the second week was the worst and most boring week of all...because we had nothing to do at home plus the computer was conquered by my bro and his games.

The last week which was last week and umm yesterday was the most interesting week of all...Because I got to go to Miri with the leaders to perform a dance for the launching of Torch Ministry in Lutong on Friday. The fact that excited me was that I had the priviledge to dance there eventhough I was a terrible dancer. All thanks to Laurice. (Laurice if you are reading this, I WANT TO SAY A BIG THANKS FOR GIVING ME THE CHANCE TO PERFORM THERE!!!!!! =) I am really happy and yeah we had a good time.

I hope that the others did too, I kinda feel bad that the leaders had to be responsible for me because it was suppose to be their CG outing and I know it's very hard for them to have a nice vacation. SORRY GUYS AND GALS.......but THANKS FOR LETTING US JOIN YOU IN YOUR OUTING!!!!!!!

But offcourse the person that I want to give my thanks to is GOD! If it wasn;t for His will, I wouldn't be going and yeah I really am thankful for His love and kindness.(GOD I KNOW YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE WITH ME BUT I REALLY WANT TO THANK YOU FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY!!!!! THANK YOU LORD!!!!)


I know that sounded kinda weird but it's just to give Him the praise and glory and to share with all of you what He has done for me as well as a way to show you how to thank Him for all the things that He has done on you. (hope you understand that bit)

And yeah there were many things that happened which usually would make me go ku ku (you know like the clock kuku, i don't know how to spell it so yeah) and all hyped and crazy that makes people want to get of your sight.....but yeah it's not like that anymore....to me, I just want to focus on God rather than focusing on the experiences that I have came across because He is the one who gave me the chance to go in the first place so why should I be so selfish to think of only the nice things but not more on Him?

So yeah that is all for now but I will come back tommorow to tell you the trip in Miri in detail from day one to day three. That is if this comp is good and the internet connection is also not GILA.