Wow ........it's like been three or four months since I blogged...I think people don't really read it anymore so yeah I can say whatever I like now......

You know I can't go to Cg now coz my parents think it's too late when I finish and ummm since De Hao is the one who is bringing me and from.......my dad is scared that I might get accident or anything ever since his friend's son got an acciden and ended up paralysed.......(sigh)

See the problems I have now? It's not only that but I tend to see that these days I'm very selfish......

It's not that I don't want to share but it's because I always share with people that people tend to take me for granted and that hurts because I thought I could trust them.....

The other day at Cg .... the first time I mean, I wanted to stay longer because it was my first and I wanted to talk to all of the CG members since they were there....so I thought that I could ask De Hao a very BIG BIG favor.....that is to send Blessy home first and then come back and send us (Sheng and me) when he wants to go home, I thought he wanted to go home later and since he himself said that he could send Blessy first and then come back ( i Heard it with my own two ears!!!!!!) I thought it would be ok......but offcourse not........ just yesterday I talked to Blessy on the phone...and she kinda adviced me that I'm selfish and that I tend to say things before I think.....THAT IS VERY TRUE!!!!!!!

And you know what? I hate it alot....I hate the fact that I'm so stupid that I can't think first and then say out words that are supposed to make people be happy and not burdened.........I'm sorry De HAo...very sorry...I wont' ever ask something that will burden you anymore................

So I hope that tommorow would be ready for the dance rehearsal for the Youth Sunday............................I'm so nervous so terribly nervous .....I'm not as good as the others...I really suck totally man........


(SIGH)

There is still a list of problems that I haven't told anybody......I dpn't like to tell anymore...only the ones that I can't stand keeping and needs forgiveness.......

I hate myself right now................